Ahhhhhhhh

Okay I really need to study!!!! 😭

Need to mug

Honestly I'm so distracted and so unmotivated though. Gosh exam on Monday. 😫

Freaking hell

His distrust in me is so fking appalling. I already told him I'm not in contact with him. He just insulted me by assuming I was out with someone? Haha. I typed f off and blocked him.

Then he smses me to get me to meet him the day after my exams end. He adds what? No excuse and reason. What the f is he saying? His grammar is horrendous. Not like I can meet him though. Going to JB with my family. I'm not obliged to tell him though. He's so full of shit. It's preposterous trying to talk to him.

I actually pitied him today because he said he was on the way to my home to pass me pringles that I was craving for yesterday. But I told him not to come. When he said he was on the way already, I wanted to tell him to just come then. But the next moment he said he was already cabbing home. Using money like water. Zz. Anyway, I asked if he wanted to have dinner together. But he just refused to reply la? I guessed he was trying to give me a taste of my own medicine. But wtf I merely asked him that out of pity. Then he just insults me like that. You freaking kidding me? Lol just fk off seriously.

Sometimes

Holding on is more damaging than letting go.

Don't you think... It's better to let go?

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Mmmm I'm drinking peppermint tea. It's awesome. Refreshing. And tasteless. Lol. My teeth are still hurting 😥

Self censorship

Just practised that even though no one visits this blog. Bitching about groupmates is a nono regardless of how valid the reasons.

So painful!!!

Went to tighten my braces today. She did so for the lower anteriors. Omg it's so painful!!! Freaking painful. I couldnt eat much for dinner cuz it's just so tender. I hope tomorrow it'll be less painful.

Dentist actually said my teeth will be sore the whole month. I was like omg internally. I hope she didn't actually mean really the whole month. :( she used a stiffer wire today to make my lower anterior teeth stick forward a bit. Can see spaces in between my teeth already.

Oh and I chose bright green modules today. Luckily my dentist asked if I'm OK with the color after just applying for one tooth. It's really too bright 🔆. Only selected it cuz of the sis. 😌 but ya I decided to only have green for my lower set of teeth so my upper set is still lavender. I think lavender's my favorite! Followed by black!

But ya ouch it's still so painful.. 😭 should I take panadol...

Stats done

Done with stats ICA. Somehow it was more difficult than expected. But heck its just 1 modular credit. The other credit from the project.. Ahh I'll just leave it to the rest to do. I take it that I've done my part.

Oh damn

I did so badly in the test today. Okay need to buck up big time.

Can't believe end semester tests start on Monday next week. Feel quite screwed

Its such a cold day. Rain pelting down heavily. The wind is so strong.

Taken it off

Its a very pretty accessory. One that I'd been wearing on my neck and not taken off for months. I only decided to really take it off yesterday. Haha. My neck feels bare. Feel like wearing another necklace instead. Shall go look at what I have in my drawer tmr.

The little reminders

As I said bb. The thought of him came into mind.

With the knowledge that he's around. I hope very hard that I won't get to see him. But my searching eyes betray me.

Conflicted. I shouldn't be thinking this way.

And bloody hell I should be focusing on studying for the test tomorrow.

Burnout

I think I worked quite hard throughout the semester on all of my modules. Yes I did watch a lot of kdramas and a lot of anime (like each week I can be looking out for updates from 5-7 Korean dramas, more than 5 ongoing anime, and when I ran out of things to watch, I'd binge watch a completed drama or anime or watch a couple of movies). Such is my life, and such is my desire to escape from it. Sigh idk what to say... But that's nothing new.

I still think I worked quite hard throughout the semester. And as a result I'm getting this burnt out feeling. Yeah that's despite all that I've watched.. Cuz the escape is always only temporary. My social life is in shambles, maybe that's partly why I'm feeling so drained. Does that make sense?

Anyway I've got a test tomorrow that's worth 20% of a module that is worth 4 modular credits. That's quite a lot. I haven't really prepared. I've been trying to. I even skipped practical today to come home early to mug. But I felt so lethargic that I slept for two hours in the afternoon. Drats. Hopefully I'm able to fall asleep easily tonight. And hopefully tomorrow's paper won't be too tough.

Fingers crossed.